I am a Christian who hates what Christianity has become.
I am a Right Wing Reactionary who hates modernist capitalism, the Republican Party, free trade, school vouchers, nation-building, environmental destruction, localism, and Reaganism.
I am an American Nationalist who hates what America has become, the democratic ideals it celebrates, the hedonistic ideals it celebrates, and most of its political-economic-cultural system as currently constructed.
I am a proponent of strong centralized government who is extremely critical of the standing government as presently constructed and used.
I enjoy the comforts of modernity and I see the clear benefits of modern ways of doing things however I believe that the extremely destructive qualities of progress are not properly weighed if at all. Proponents of progress, free trade, free markets, and capitalism often cite that the horse and buggy industry was destroyed to make way for the automobile. They often assume that this was a tremendous thing. I do not necessarily agree with that claim. To clarify, I absolutely love the automobile revolution but even that revolution went too far in a lot of ways. The world would be better in a lot of ways if we were stuck with the first expressions of the horseless carriage. All I am saying is that progress should not be blindly embraced and should be treated with extreme caution.
I am a teaching assistant within a system which I find extremely corrupt, damaging, and Kafkaesque.
I look upon people as extremely evil, vulgar, repulsive, delusional, destructive, and deserving of death yet I patiently lead myself towards them with humility, grace, forgiveness, and love.
My best friend and my only authentically close friend is someone who gets me 100% and is wired like me 100% yet the logic of the modern world dictates that we should be extreme enemies. Well, the logic of the modern world is bankrupt on multiple fronts. My best friend is a gentleman who I am willing to go to war for behind enemy lines under rapid machine gun fire.